I don’t know how to write this post. I can write it as a rant. I can write it to be hopeful, put a positive spin on it. I can write it in a way that is reflective, poignant and sad. I am upset. That much I know. I am upset that I find myself in a situation I thought I had escaped or at the very least moving away from.

Between my 9 years relationship coming to an end, resigning from a workplace that was making me miserable, the UK economy being in a dire state and the job market in the tech industry facing its biggest crisis probably since the dot com boom, I am heading towards bankruptcy.

Fuck that.

Today I basically need to give notice to my flat and with that start the clock. I have 2 months to find a job or pack my shit and fuck off of London. That means going back to Greece and live with my mom. The last time I lived with my mom was 30 years ago. What happens after that? Who fucking knows. I’ll just go for a swim.

I don’t know what needs to go into this post. I have stated how I want this website to be mostly about human stories. How life is fucking messy. I am just not in the mood to be reflective right now when I am in the middle of my life crashing down like a house of cards.

I know very well the challenges I have been facing ever since I was a child. I always did. I am aware of the risks I am taking and what makes my life hard. I am fortunate to be in good health so it’s easy to tell me I am being over-dramatic; offering unsolicited opinions and lecturing from the comfort of your perfectly knit life you have wrapped in a bow telling me I have a choice.

Fuck off.

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This is a personal website, at the outskirts of the web, away from social media and publishing platforms. This website surfaces social, racial, economic traits and explores human relationships. It highlights the conditions that contribute to one's personal success or downfall. It shares stories that act as a reminder that life is messy, complex, nuanced, diverse. It aims to bring the world closer together. It reaches out to those that feel lost, lonely, inadequate and outcasts. I am with you.