Back in London

It’s almost been 5 years since I left. Yet it feels like I never did. I am getting goosebumps writing this. The Smiths is playing on Spotify. Take me home tonight. Take me out tonight. Because I want to see people and I want to see life.

I see the light UK drizzle outside. Tears of happiness are running down my eyes. I can’t believe I’m back. I made it. I’m back. Back in my old flat. That’s a funny story. With my old furniture back. A bit rundown but the same. Like my body.

I had no idea. I would have never imagined. I wouldn’t believe you if you told me. Five years ago, I was running away. Now I’ve run home. It’s been less than a week yet it feels like a month. Feels like I’ve never left. I am fortunate. I know I am. I am also a survivor. I can’t believe I’ve survived this but I did.

In these past 5 years I found my father. In these past 5 years, I did years of therapy to get to the bottom of my anxiety and depression. In these past 5 years I got to know myself better that ever before.

I am glad I did this. Even though I didn’t know I had to. I neither had the insight nor the awareness 5 years ago. Imagine having to “put on hold” your life as it is today and go away for 5 years to work on yourself, pay your dues, pay back the debt from the time you’ve borrowed to keep going. I was in my late thirties. I now am in my early forties. I feel good! I feel good because of how much I’ve grown. I feel good knowing this is behind me.

As I was getting ready to leave Athens, I met with a friend. He said to me, “This is the most relaxed I’ve ever seen you as you are about to pack up and leave again.”

I am not running away anymore.

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This is a personal website, at the outskirts of the web, away from social media and publishing platforms. This website surfaces social, racial, economic traits and explores human relationships. It highlights the conditions that contribute to one's personal success or downfall. It shares stories that act as a reminder that life is messy, complex, nuanced, diverse. It aims to bring the world closer together. It reaches out to those that feel lost, lonely, inadequate and outcasts. I am with you.